Sometimes

Sometimes you have really good days. Sometimes you have really bad days. Sometimes your life may seem perfect and sometimes that may all go away. Sometimes people need to just cry. Sometimes people need to just laugh. Sometimes you don't fit into that pair of jeans. And sometimes you may look amazing in them. Sometimes a punch to the wall is the only thing that well make you feel good or a loud scream. Sometimes sitting in silence is the best answer. Sometimes people don't really know what they want. Sometimes people only see what they want. Sometimes you shouldn't blog about random thoughts. Sometimes you're super creative. Sometimes you're just grey. Sometimes your scale reads heavier than you want. Sometimes a McDouble sounds delicious. Sometimes you want to throw up by the words McDouble. Sometimes writing is the only person you have to talk to. Sometimes those heels make your legs fat. Sometimes you're invincible. Sometimes you don't know when to stop. Sometimes it's ok to splurge. Sometimes when you do splurge it's better not to go into full detail. Sometimes on sale prices aren't that great, but you need it because it's on sale. Sometimes you live in a castle. Sometimes you smile. Sometimes it's hard to smile. Sometimes is just sometimes though. It's ok to mess up sometimes, it's every time that can break hearts or make days.

* Yes I know I'm super creative and random and but I haven't really had any updates so this is what you get.

Good ol California fun

Today is the day to catch up on my blogging. So here is another post short and simple. Last weekend I went home to California for my friend Jacque's baby shower. I love going home when there is some event because all my friends always come. Disclaimer: I love love my Utah friends and seeing them every day but when you don't see your elementary/ jr. high friends for over a year I just get so excited to see them. I seriously have the best group of friends and we have been friends for literally over a decade ( and that sounds really old). We are the group of friends that can not talk for months and be completely normal once we start talking, have never fought and well always do things for each other. Jacque and Serina are both pregnant and having boys so I'm kinda jealous their boys get to grow up together. All my Utah friends/ Family are having girls and so my son is going to be quite the ladies man( I mean seriously if you know his father how can he not be popular with the ladies) hopefully there well be some boys not too far behind.

Casey, Kathleen, Jack, Becky, Serins & Me all best friends since 7th grade

Me, Jack & Tiff

The 3 pregnant chicks and 3 baby boys.

New Home

About 2 months ago we moved into our beautiful new home. After many stressful days and nights we finally closed and we love it. We live right by Chris( Joe's twin) and Bre and have great neighbors. Joe loves the home because we are on the golf course and I love it because it is basically brand new and I don't have to redo anything. It is going to take a while to get it fully decorated but we'll get there one day.

Our new home right in the middle of both our families!

Our kitchen

Our living area

The rest of the house is filled with bedrooms and bathrooms that are empty at this point. Honestly I rearly go upstairs so who knows we could have some creatures living up there. Having a new home is a lot like having a baby I have realized.

Baby and New Home:

1. Both cause a little stress before we even have them

2. Both are expensive, we don't have the baby yet but we know he'll be a pretty penny. As for a new home it's not as quite as cheap as our condo and I've seen bills that only grown ups should get and Joe and I are clearly not grown ups yet.

3. Both cut into Vacation Joe.

4. Both need new things. How can someone who I can't even see yet need new clothes, diapers, food, bedding and so much more than I would ever need. Our home is pretty selfish too always wanting to be decorated.

5. In the beginning both caused me some sleepiness nights and weird dreams.

After all the stress and worry and expenses both have caused us happiness and joy. We love our new home even though it made us grow up a little more. And Joe and I are both becoming more obsessed with our baby boy. He makes us happier each day and can't wait to meet him. So yes Father Joe and Reasonable Joe are coming out in full force but don't worry Golf and Vacation Joe aren't far behind.

St. Lucia

Last week Joe and I went to St. Lucia and it was gorgeous. We stayed with Neil and Catie on Neil's parent's sail boat. Yes, literally a sail boat and we sailed for 6 days around St. Lucia. I have been to the Caribbean a lot but I have didn't remember it being so hot and humid. We stayed at gorgeous beaches and resorts, ate some interesting local food, and met the friendliest people. It was a nice much needed vacation but after sweating for 6 days I think I may need a vacation from our vacation, and since Joe loves vacations I feel a little Vacation Joe coming out before Father Joe gets here.

* Catie & I on the dingy between the pitons

* Our last port at Rodney Bay Joe found a pastry shop. We really ordered about 6 times in a span of 2 hours and every time the lady saw us she just laughed but I'm sure was grateful we cleaned out her apple turnovers and ham and egg croissants. It was delicious!

* most pictures are of me behind Joe but they finally convinced me to do a belly pic. I'm 21 weeks I believe.

* My feet swelled up once I got there and then went down a little. One night while at dinner my legs got attack by bugs and my ankle swelled up like I've never seen. My calves and ankles swelled up so bad on our plan ride home I could barley walk because my skin was pulled so tight. I'm just glad they are slowly going back to normal and not everything on me is getting fat with pregnancy.

* Some little ruins we found on a hike. The hike was a pretty little hike through a rain forest.

*One morning Ellen took us to a floating dock and we did Qui Qong or Chi Chong some type of meditation and of course Joe had to do it in snorkel gear.

* Joe and I at the Pitons one of the most beautiful spots I have ever seen.

* Joe and I at the front of the sail boat, starting our sea adventures.

* These 2 really loved each other the whole trip. They defiantly were each other's biggest fans and laughed all day long. Catie & I didn't think they were as funny as they thought they were, but we still love them.

Baby Coccimiglio

We're having a boy and couldn't be more excited! I had a feeling we were having a boy but every weird dream I have had has always been a girl. Last night I dreamt all night long, about running late to the appointment and seeing a baby girl, so I prepped Joe before we went and said all my dreams have been a girl but we'll see. The second I realized we were looking between the legs I knew it was a boy. I'm sure we would have been just as excited for a girl, but now knowing the sex of our baby makes pregnancy so much more real. It's not that I'm just getting fat now, but now I have a baby boy and it's ok to have a belly for him. We saw him in every angle and his little heart it was amazing. I haven't seen Joe as excited as I saw him today. I'm sure he is just thrilled to have a little soccer player. Most of my friends are having or have had girls so my little boy well have plenty of girlfriends to choose from. To be honest I haven't been to much into this pregnancy. Haven't really looked at baby clothes or items or anything really, but now I am more excited to get a nursery together and I can't wait until October.

Curse You Jalapeno

A couple of months ago I made this Indian dish that requires some jalapeno. After I cut and seeded the jalapeno I of course washed my hands. A couple hours later after eating with our friends I rubbed my eye and apparently there was still some stupid jalapeno on it because it shot through my eye. It instantly went down the right side of my face and numbed my whole right side. So I learned my lesson from then on I always wore those plastic dentist gloves while cutting hot peppers. Well last weekend we had friends over to see our new place and I made the same Indian dish ( it takes like all day to make and Joe is obsessed with it, so only when he is good is when I'll make it JK). I didn't use gloves because I was running late and with moving I just wasn't sure where they were. So I was extra careful all night making sure I didn't rub my eyes or even itch my nose. If I had an itch I had Joe do it. I washed my hands several times throughout the night so I thought I was safe. Well here comes bed time around 12 and I go to take out my contacts. Son of a B-sting there was still jalapeno on my fingers. Luckily not too much and Joe flushed it with water so I could still feel my face. So yes Jalapeno 2, Tori 0 and no matter how big of a hurry I am in I well not cut super hot peppers until I have my dental gloves on.

Our Last Big Vacay for a while

As many of you know vacation time is very important to Joe, mainly to Vacation Joe. With a baby on the way we of course had to get in 1 last big vacation. Don't get me wrong I'm sure we well still have many weekend trips before October but apparently with a new house and a baby life just got a lot more expensive. After many months of debating if we could afford one last big vacation we decided we can. Joe's friend Neil's parents are sailing their way around the Caribbean for who knows how long and invited Neil and Catie to come visit, and then Neil invited us to come visit. SO we're going on down to St. Lucia and sailing around for 6 days. I'm so excited because it is something we have never done before. We were thinking about Hawaii but we can go to Hawaii anytime, sailing around islands doesn't happen to often. So hopefully Neil wasn't joking about us coming because our tickets are booked and I'm looking for swimsuits. We are going the end of May so I'm sure swimsuits aren't going to be my favorite thing to wear being all nice and round, but I think I can suck it up for a couple of days. I'm excited for summer and sun and visiting new islands we haven't visited before!