Yesterday Joe told Finn that he loves him more than going on a cruise. I never thought I'd hear that because Joe loves his vacationing. This week I realized I may love vacationing more than Joe. Our friends went on a cruise this week and I tried everything in my power to go. I knew it wouldn't be that much fun with Finn and probably more of a headache than relaxation, but i need a vacation. Sitting at home every day is kinda driving me crazy. Though I find things to do and errands to run each day, i just need a vacation. Saturdays are the days I look forward to, Joe is home we run errands go out to eat get out of the house it's fantastic. However this Saturday we stayed in ordered pizza with friends and watched some more March Madness. I was going a little crazy but in the end I realized this is my life and I love it. We don't get to go on vacations on a whim, I don't get a full nights rest, I have to eat a lot to feed this little guy, but when those baby blues stare at me and then wrinkle as he smiles I remember how much I love every moment of every day staying home with him. Our big vacations well just have to be put on hold until our family is done growing. Don't get me wrong I probably well still complain and get a little stir crazy but in the end I'll always love it.